When I used to keep a diary growing up, and even in recent years, I always stopped writing during "bad" times. I guess I never wanted to admit, even if just to myself, that there was anything wrong. It was much easier to write about the happy, proud, excited times like when I had a crush on a boy who I thought liked me back, when I scored goals or placed well in a sport I was competing in or when I was achieving what I had set my mind to achieve. The times when I knew I was in a relationship going south, when I was worried about my grades, hating my job, or was having a hard time finding my "place" in life, my pen sat on my desk and months or even years would go by before I'd find the need or courage to write again. Maybe I thought if I didn't write about it, it wasn't a problem. My diary for many years was a confidant. Something I knew that wouldn't judge me. But for some reason, it seems I actually did view it as something I felt judged by. Maybe I didn't want to look back on those years and realized I had failed at anything.